A few nights ago I attempted suicide. It wasn't close to the first time & more then likely will not be the last. I posted about it to thank all EMTS & crew who helped me, then chucked it at the last minute. It made me feel weak and embarrassed, I didn't want anybody to know. I've decided to post again regardless because, how can I help fight the stigma from the dark corners of my life. So I am standing here writing this not looking for sympathy just wanting to turn on the spotlight, stand there and be seen. Beauty, blemishes, scars and all.