today, i wanted to cry so badly. i’m felding kinda schizophrenia. a few weeks ago, i woke up having the date “23th january”, but i don’t know why, lol.
but today is the day, where i felt depressed and hopeless again after a while. i’m not saying, that i have special abilities, it’s just freaking me out rn.
so what i wanted to tell about, was how invincible and unimportant to someone. i felt like i was a glass, a broken glass.
i’m not the kind of person, who wants everyone to take initiative first, but i’m getting tired of being the one who have to do it every f**king time.
so i entered a room, where two of my pretty good friends were.
i wanted them to notice me, i wanted them to say hi, but they didn’t.
i had to start a conversation with another person, before one of my friends “noticed” me. my friend say hi, and i wanted to ignore the person so much, but i didn’t...
just as i predicted, the other friend didn’t say anything to me. it was not because i were quite or anything, so my second “friend” can’t say “oh, i didn’t see you”.
i felt so worthless to them. they are my world, but i’m obviously not big enough to be noticed.
btw my grammar sucks