I am not writing this for sympathy or to be looked at as a victim. I’m writing because silence doesn’t always help you heal, and I hope by sharing it helps someone in need. Today is our Baby’s due date, but no baby. As you have seen I have been on a healing journey for some months now. When I was 10 weeks pregnant I found out I had thyroid disease. I didn’t know what this meant for me or for our baby at the time. I felt lost and confused and that my body was turning on me in such a crucial time. I didn’t understand what was happening cause I didn’t have classic symptoms of hypothyroidism. For years I might have displayed red flags, but they were overlooked, and with all the anxiety weight loss from recent prior years I didn’t feel HYPO was the answer. We lost our baby soon after this. One night I feel you still inside of me, growing, the next moment you’re gone. How quickly my body bounced back, proving our baby was truly gone. Nothing can prepare you for any of the feelings you experience during time of loss. All the pain, the anger, the hurt, the betrayal. I know its common, but why me? I had done an intense spiritual healing workshop a few weekends after the loss. With the help of my higher self I was able to tell my ego it wasn’t my fault, my body loves me it would never hurt me. It was exactly what I needed to cope with my emotional pain. But the diagnosis didn’t say that at all. After more testing, my Naturopath Dr discovered it was Hashimotos. My body was attacking itself??? A short time after that…though pure guidance of the universe, I found @medicalmedium I started reading Thyroid Healing. The truth in my heart was being revealed. It wasn’t my body attacking itself. It was an invader of Epstein Barr Virus. This virus has been hiding for years on me and chose that trigger moment to attack. With all the change in hormones and an average diet, I was feeding the virus and making it stronger. @medicalmedium had dedicated his life to use his gift to help others heal. It was no accident that any of the events had happened. This is my journey. Whether or not I agree with it all of the time I know things had to plan out the way ⬇️⬇️⬇️ continue in comments
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This is something I've sketched💗 What do you think about it? Should I upload more of my sketches? ❤️
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tattoo thursdate 🙌🏼❤️
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I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. #growth #confusion #everythinghappensforareason
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#fbf to my bikini days when my best areas hid behind my hair #back #delts #lats Competing in bikini definitely gave me grace and fluidity in my posing as a figure competitor and helped me build a great glute ham tie in!!! #everythinghappensforareason #happyfriday #tgif
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