Dear boy I love,
I'm sorry. I know I lean on you a lot more than I should, but sometimes I can't help it. I know you say it's no big deal and that you don't mind, but everyone minds eventually. I'll try to do better because I know it must get annoying; I'm sure my apologies also probably get annoying because I do this often as well. I'm sorry. I still have to remind myself sometimes that you are mine. I'm still terrified that one day you will wake up and realize that you made the wrong choice. I'm scared that someday you'll realize I was just in the wrong place at the right time, that I was just a shiny new object to catch your eye. I'm scared that someday you'll wake up and see I have lost my shine. I told you one day that you would be the one to break my heart; I'm scared that still may be true. I sometimes have a hard time letting myself love you because I'm so scared that it might change one day. That one day you won't love me, or maybe one day I won't love you like I used to. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I do love you, I'm just scared. Scared and sorry.
Love, You know my name