March 4 2017. On that day you left and broke me. You were holding me together and you broke me. I guess you didn’t realize how much you meant to me. I didn’t realize either until you left this hole bigger then my heart in my chest. You were the only one I ever felt that actually cared, but did you? We talked everyday, made jokes, laughed, you always said good morning and goodnight. We shared our stories and feelings while also relating through our depression. You gave me strength not to relapse and showed me compassion when I did. I told you everything I hid from everyone else. You saw me at my rawest weakest self and you still called me beautiful. I had never let anyone see that ugly side of me... You made me feel like I was worth something when I felt like nothing. You even told me you loved me a couple times. For once I was feeling hopeful in life, and happy. It was so good to feel happy again. You were like a drug. But it scared me. It scared me how happy you made me because I knew how incompatible we were and that I could lose you at any moment... And I did. To someone better than me. And the worst part is I found out on me own, after you blocked me and lied about it. It happened so suddenly, like you just woke up one day and decided to stop talking to me and ignore me. Do you know how bad it feels to stop talking to someone you used to talk to everyday?? I don’t know what happened or what I did wrong. I felt invisible. Was anything even real? Was everything an illusion? Was I even worth something in your eyes? Of coarse not, the girl you were dating behind my back was prettier, skinnier, and without scars. I wasn’t good enough, it was all a lie. And ever since.. I’ve been searching for someone else, but no one has even come remotely close to touching the surface of my heart like you did. Maybe it’s because you took it with you when you left. Now all I do is try to fill the hole where my heart was with other things like sadness, drugs, and alcohol. But nothing compares to the way you made me feel and I’m still searching for that feeling.