So I blackout stuff when I drink. I don't drink often anymore, but I used to drink a lot through college and towards the end, blackouts became common.
Now drinking often triggers anxiety, even when it's not an awful lot and even when it's a tame night. But the blackouts don't take much anymore. I don't miss entire nights, just minutes or moments that are gone. I remember pieces, and I'm aware that other pieces just aren't there.
My words go unaccounted for, as I tend to delete messages sent and I'm left hoping that nothing said was unforgivable .... if it was, I might never know.
8 minutes ago
Okay this one was ROUGH. I'm trying to keep my streak going of posting daily, as of right now I have five minutes - alas, the muse was not sparked right now.
So here's to not feeling pressured to post GOLD every damn time