Sorry it’s been a while since I’ve posted some updates. I just finished moving last weekend & about done unpacking now. It’s been taking up a lot of time between appointments & treatments. I’ve been dealing with worsened symptoms lately as well. I’m sure the move didn’t help with all the physical exertion on top of usual symptoms & still having a sinus infection. I’ve been super fatigued, sleeping more often, getting tired earlier in the day, trouble with foods & formula & a couple infections now. I also made things worse by eating foods I’m allergic to, chanced eating out at a restaurant & during a worsening allergy season just makes my immune system suuuper fun. *sarcasm* I’ll post more medical updates following this. #lifeofnessleigh
I feel very hurt physically and emotionally today. My dad is terrorizing my mom and I again and criticizing us and causing all kinds of arguments. It’s sad, my mom told me that I am nothing and I am worthless living in this house. Pretty much she was implying that I’m a waste of space. And my dad tells me that constantly. I hate to say it but I think I’m actually starting to believe it. I don’t want to but maybe it is kind of true. Clearly I’m not like most 20 year olds. I can’t drive because I’m too nervous and weak. I can’t and don’t really want to go to college. And I’m too weak to work. And the way I feel all the time I’m afraid I’m never going to get better. Even though I pray all the time it doesn’t seem to be helping my current situation yet. Even if I’m still living in my parents’ house I still have freedom of speech. Everyone does or should. If I’m being criticized and put down I have the right to stand up for myself. I feel so hated by the people I’m closest to. It hurts me emotionally and physically. I’m praying to God that things get better soon!!! #wednesday#wednesdaywisdom#nohate#abuse#TIMESUP#bipolar#mentalhealth#mentalillness#anxiety#depression#stress#illness#chronicillness#invisibleillness#ibs#ibd#gastritis#gastroparesis#spoonie#calm#relax#motivation#strength#staystrong 🖤
I wrote an article about how social media has changed my perspective on living with Type 1. I definitely don’t think I’d be where I am today without this community, so I just want to say a genuine thank you to each and every one of you!
Don’t give up. If today is a hard day remember tomorrow is a new day. Hoping you are all having a good day and if you aren’t you are in my thoughts and remember I’m always here to talk if needed. *You matter!* •Join me on FB, link in bio to join•